Three<\/em> comes the closing of the chapters \u2013 birth, death, and now life, which is, I believe, in order to live really happily, a constant state of working on healing.”<\/p>\n\n\n\nTrappes began her solo work in earnest after a decade as half of NYC-based electronic duo The Golden Filter, and says the shift in focus came from wanting to express her own personal story more fully. “I\u2019d been very much part of a team. My partner and I, we\u2019re a couple as well, we see eye to eye on everything and it\u2019s wonderful. But it had got to a point of my maturity as a woman where I just wanted to be me, myself, and I, and explore things that were unique to my life to date,” she explains. “Very individual experiences, like being a single mum for a while there, and my childhood growing up in Australia, and traveling before I moved to America, all these things. I really wanted to make it very much as if it was, in essence, sort of a journal entry.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Because most of her lyrics are more impressionistic than a typical diary, Trappes is able to extract what feels like ancient wisdom from every corner of her existence. From moving to a huge old house in Brighton after years of living in London, to the act of unpacking her anxiety, Trappes’ exploits take stirring, esoteric shapes. Opening with “Veil,” which she says was inspired by meeting a friend’s newborn baby, taking root with “Forest,” in which she visualizes all of humanity as a kind of inter-connected mycelium, and coming full circle with “Awkward Matriarch,” Trappes explores matrilineal bonds in atypical ways. This narrative was inspired by the eternal bonds shared with her daughter (who recently turned nineteen and left home) and her own mother, who has suffered with Parkinsons since Trappes was a teenager but is still “strong in spirit.” <\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Motherhood was always going to be one of the main themes with my solo work,” Trappes says. “The music world\u2019s changed so much in the last few years that it\u2019s not a dirty word to say you\u2019re a mother and active musician. It\u2019s ridiculous, but when I first started out I didn\u2019t tell a lot of people because I just didn\u2019t want to hear the judgement, whatever way it comes, you know? There\u2019s this self-empowerment, there\u2019s these things that you struggle through, and the love \u2013 whether you ever have a child or not, we all have a mother, and whatever those connections are that people have with their mothers, they shape who you are and what you become or what you struggle with, what you need to heal from. That was really important to me, not just on a personal level about my own daughter and my mother, but on a sociological level.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Throughout the album, Trappes’ intrepid production elevates these narratives to something intensely primal. “Awkward Matriarch,” for instance, starts off “deliberately super minimal and quiet,” but Trappes chose to build vocal layers over it to symbolize women across centuries and millennia singing together \u2013 “all the voices and all the struggle, and the joy in one song,” as she puts it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
“All the demos come from these drones, whether it’s with a synth or a guitar, like just reverb echoing. Meditation moments are sort of what creates the initial demos,” she adds. “And then, a track like ‘Nervous,’ for example, needed more. It needed to almost build that anxiety. At the end you\u2019ve got this lift but there\u2019s still the weight of it all.” Where the song goes, she says, mostly depends on its subject matter.<\/p>\n\n\n\n